jigsaw love. da heart's in sophisticated pieces

YSunday, April 02, 2006

i shot u down bang bang, i hit da round bang bang

so so swit.. i like

3 days 2 nite at DOwntown East Chalet
weekend nites are so filled wid ppl.
to my surprises, i tot onli sko holiday wil be packed.
1st day...
went wid ed to his frien place to collect food stuff.
it was rainin heavily
when da wind howls violently,
leaves fall gracefully,
and water drops from da sky,
danicin to da rythem.
my visions blurred,
loneliness creeped into mi
silently, rapidly.
wil i shiver to da fallin temperature helplessly,
or wil ere be a flame to gif mi warmth.
as i'm searchin to find comfort,
unknowinly, i crumpled to a frozen state.
By da roadside,
God received mi wid opens arms
in da minst of da crowd,
beautified by many passers-by seekin shelter under eir unbrella.
reached da chalet
ed went to returned car to his dad at marina sq
i stayed at da chalet waitin fo ed t return to haf dinner wid him,
i waited and waited.
onli to receive a kol from him sayin he's havin dnner outside.
was alone fo 3 hours.
explore downtown east throughly fo 5 times,
wakes to da beach alone.
imagine 0900 and walked alone in a f-quiet place, rumoured to haf alot of ghostttt.
f-not fearin too much.
everytime, i feel upset,
nth realli scares mi.
but when walkin back,
i wasnt half as brave.
ran back.. =P
watch wayang.
ed returned
bought corn ice-cream.
didnt eat it.
moodless..
feelin terrible.
felt like an intruder to his klass.
at late nite,
played black jack wid his klass. feelin bette.
won 3 dollas. wid ed =D
en played 007. cute.
i shot u down, bang bang
u hit da ground, bang bang
... lallala =P
games ended at 0500.
went to watch sunrise. yet 10 min before we catch it, we're back in chalet.
rest till 0900
wishin fo a hug to put mi to slep fo once so long,
i've been alone evrynite looin at my pillows.
i got none. not even an arm.
maybe i'm jux a frien

2nd day.
went to wild wild wet, wid ed, earli mornin to avoid crowd.
got fam day.
so scare wil haf alot of ppl.
but thankfully. not too much
played rides widot needin to quene.
played lar lah fo 5 times.
waterworks for 4 times.
slide up fo 1 time. scare la.
en played kids playground too. got so tanned.
fun!!
money worth while. =)
had lunch e back to chale.
ed's ffrien jux went of to da www.
mi and ed played PS2 in da room. fun!!
KOF, WWf, Fatal Frame.
ed was so scare of FF.
it got mi reminded of sth
"he looked so cute when he's tryin to comfort mi inspite of his fears"
in a hour, heavy rain.
sigh. spoiler rain at tis time.
BBQQQQQ!!!!
help a lil.
ed's frien's gf oso come oradi.
hahaha..
dunno y. as time pass,
felt so left out again.
sigh.. =(
nite time aft BBQ. ey wanna take grp foto.
i volunteer to take fo em. ed was so pissed.
" dun make mi scream at u"
aft takin photo
"look at em, ey're so close, so happi.. us?"
comparin to his frien and his gf.
felt realli lke shit.
wanted to slep. can't slep.
got brezzer. drank in gups.
hope to slep.
utter all my feelins to ed.
h-care.
went to bed. cry.
uncontrollably, tears jux streamed down.
felt like can't take it animore.
eyes are swollened from tears and tirednes.
down i went. 0200-0900
2nd bottle of gulps to make mi reali eel like 'm flowin to and fro
3rd to make mi forget
4th to knock mi down..

maybe i'm jux a tool fo yr satisfaction. maybe u feel tat i'm gainin to.
maybe. u jux won da game.
i'm sick.
i'm beginnin to c da end of our tunnel.
=)

3rd day..
goin home.
ed said i snore loudly last nite.
realli tired i tink i am.
felt him huggin mi last nite.
he said h's v cold cox he gave his blanket to mi.
thanx.
'm home.. tired.

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