YWednesday, August 09, 2006
Jux back from watchin the fireworks at esplande. i was ere from 1715. Aft i finished my revision, i'd wanted to watch movie. Alone!!! Wad da fuck!! "LakeHouse" but da timings are jux so wrong. Somehow i was dissappointed tat i didnt get to catch it. However, i'm feelin glad tat i didn't. Because..
Having no movie to watch, i went to esplande, to jux take a sit and immerse myself into tots of misery, loneliness and the scenery. By thetime i reached, da place was like wow! da benches by da river were 95% taken up. and da stairs were startin to be occupied.
I was so so earli, 4 more hours to go. Feelin like shite, i listen to some sentimental & heart-beakin songs on my trusted poddi. Tears streamed down again, this time on a gentle slopin river. Sometimes, i can feel my heart breakin inside mi, it feels terrible. I wanted to cry out lound and flag fo rescue, somehow, my tears dun go my way. I'm beginnin to wonder if i could be runnin outta tears. Being unable to cry is not a good ting pls. It makes yr eye so painful, cox u are like tryin to bottle tings up and it felt worst. Havin no alcohol makes ting more shite dan it oradi is.
Opposite mi, i saw tis girl, wipin her tears away from her eyeliner-ed eyes. Ere was no smile on her face, onli sorrows, hurt & emptiness. Wad i c is more dan a girl, it is a reflection of myself. I wanted to approach her, but i dint dared to, so i stayed put, lookin at her occassionally. At times, her frien managed to make her smile a lil, but da face shows tat she's not happi at all stil. Misery. not wantin to regret not approachin today, i wrote sth to her on a slip of paper and passed to her. (we're chattin now)
ere's tis uncle sittin beside mi, he's so old and uses a hearin aid. he looked so fragile and makes mi wanna take care of him and protect him. he was ere sittin at da bench earlier dan mi, but 45 mins before da fireworks, he left fo the toilet. da crowd was big big BIG. and i guess he wasnt able to make it back to da "grandstand". i wish i had went wid my heart, and escort him out and back.
FIREWORKS!!!! magnificent!! gorgeous!! amazing!! jaws droppin.! some look like golddust. some like shootin stars, temptin mi to wish upon em. some look like ey're fallin on u, but before ey reached, ey're oradi gone. some at shorts ones, like fountain. ere's tis one which like reflects Singapore. with palm tree resemble and coconut tree resemble. hee. tropical sunny island. i'd waited 4 hours fo tis mere 10 mins which is gonna last mi a lifetime. i'm so close to da firework, ere's nth blockin mi from viewin it at all!. magical nite!! *big tankiu to the crews hu made tis firework a memorable event fo mi!!
HAPPI BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!
I LORVE SINGAPORE!!
~♥makeitmutual..
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